i just opened the blinds in the window in my office... and it's lovely outside... the sun is not shining... but there are clouds and a light, misty rain... when i moved to the northwest last year, i was worried about being depressed because of all of the rain... i worried about never seeing the sun shine...
that hasn't been the case... i do love sunshine... i do love warm sunny days... but this weather is wonderful... the rainy days definitely make me want to stay home, read a book, and curl up under a blanket... it just seems mellow... and i love that... a low-maintenance kind of day...
from my window, i can also see a gigantic spider spinning a web... i don't love spiders... and i don't like it when they're big... but the way they work to spin a web is amazing to me... i'm fascinated by it... and it made me think of a story by robert fulghum in his book, All I Really Need to Know I Learned in Kindergarten. it's a great story... if i had the time or space (or didn't feel i'd get accused of writing a novel on my blog), i'd write it out... but i'm not going to... i do remember reading the book in the 6th grade... we were supposed to do an oral book report... and that's the book i chose... i loved it... not that i got it the same way i'd get it now if i re-read it... which i'm going to do - it was in the stack of book sale books i got for free... but it made me think in ways that i hadn't thought before... have we ever thought about life from the perspective of a spider?? have i taken the time to do that before?? i guess the reason i identify so much with fulghum is the way he writes - almost as if they're little blog entries...
okay - and in the mean time - of writing all that, going and finding the book off the shelf in the library, reading the story, contemplating writing it all out... writing part of it, erasing it... and finishing up my thoughts - during all of that it started pouring... and you know that song (it's even referenced in the story) - the eensy weensy spider went up the water spout... down came the rain and washed the spider out... out came the sun and dried up all the rain, and the eensy weensy spider went up the spout again... well, this not-so eensy-weensy spider was defintely taken aback by the heavy rain - maybe not out, but he was clinging to this plant - the rain died off... and now, i can see him, sitting on the branch, and i think he's contemplating... do i start again? is the rain going to come and take me out again? and i see his legs moving and i know that he's going to start again... and i pray for that kind of determination... regardless of the storms... in the midst of trial... the ability to start again after i feel defeated... he's on the move... there he goes... go spider go!!!
Big Boo Cast: Episode 436
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very interesting. i hate spiders. although i was always a big fan of charlotte. i've always loved "everything i needed to know..." so insightful to life and what it merely represents to us. i think right now in my own life i feel defeated...much like the spider. i'm sitting on my own little branch trying to determine what it is i'm suppose to do. should i build my web here in the same spot? or should i move to a place where the rain might not destroy it. hmm...
just a side note. there's this massive spider web at the end of the balcony at my dad's apt. it absolutely amazes me how intricate it is. while one side of me wants to rip it down with the broom...i've left it up to keep me in awe.
now i'm singing the no doubt song spiderwebs.
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